Sunday, January 22, 2006

A Gift to Give...

I visited Melissa’s blog this morning and I read her post on contributing to the less fortunate during the festive season. And somehow it touched me…

Ever since my sister and I were young, my parents have taught us that it is important to give a little of what we have to those who are less fortunate. And since I was a kid, I’ve followed my mom on numerous trips to buy ‘supplies’ (y’know… milk powder, rice, milo, biscuits, the likes) that were needed by these orphanages and old folks’ homes followed by a visit to the orphanage/old folk’s home to deliver the ‘supplies’. We’ve been doing that for so long that it seemed like a ritual that we go through a few times every year.

However, ever since I came to KL, I am sad to say that I did nothing of this sort. Nothing at all. The closest thing I ever did for charity was probably donating to some organization or another when they came table-to-table asking for money. So when I read Melissa’s post on this issue, I felt a little something deep inside. Has coming to KL made me so materialistic that I had no time to give to others?

Many a time, we complain that we have no money or that we are broke. In this context, the definition of broke would be that we aren’t able to eat at some fancy restaurant or pay or some designer jeans. What about the times when we complain that there’s nothing to eat at home? When what we really mean is that there are no junk food/chocolates/juices and what-nots available for us to snack on. How about the times that we complain that we need a bigger house or a more luxurious car? Or that we absolutely “need” this new techie-gadget that has just been launched?

Have we ever thought about those people who are REALLY broke? Those who do not even have enough money to buy their current meal, much less think about the next meal. Have we given a thought to those literally have an empty refrigerator or an empty pantry? Those that really have nothing to eat at all? How about those who cannot even afford a bicycle, much less a car? Have we ever thought about the children who don’t even have books to read, much less own a computer??

Note to self/those reading this #1: It’s a Gift to Give
Learn to give a little. We have been blessed in more ways that we can ever imagine. It’s time to bless the others the same way that we have been blessed. Take some time out, save a little money and donate both to charity. Don’t go to a fancy restaurant this month; instead, take some kids from the orphanage out to a decent meal. We don’t need that new 3G phone, how about saving up that money to buy some necessities for an old folks’ home? Because we know that they certainly need it.

Note to self/those reading this #2: Always be thankful for what you have
Learn to love ourselves! Shouldn’t we be thankful for limbs that are still attached to our bodies (OMG… this is such a crude way of saying it!)? Shouldn’t we be thankful that we can see with the eyes and smell with the nose that we were blessed with? Think about those who lost their limbs or who were born impaired. Love our parents and love our families, think about those who don’t even have a family.

All in all, I think it’s high time we start giving a little to the society. Maybe start with a small orphanage or something. I know I’m gonna start doing something. I shouldn’t be only doing it when I am in Penang when I’m with my parents. I can do the same here in KL with whoever’s interested to do the same. Anyone interested to join me? =) Gimme a buzz (if you’re reading this you probably know either my email add or my phone number) and we can hook up because I promise you that doing this will give you the gratification that you cannot find elsewhere.

Just remember this: We’ve been thoroughly blessed and it’s about time that we pass on some of those blessings to those who need it.

Friday, January 20, 2006

To Do Or Not To Do?

I want a tattoo. I want it so bad, it actually hurts.
I've even chosen my design and I've already chosen the part of my body where I want to get it done. I've wanted one since I was 15 and I know I won't regret it.
So what's stopping me?
The pain.

So maybe I'm chickenshit. I'm not afraid to admit that. I'm so scared that it will be beyond my tolerance level and I might faint or cry or worse... run off when it's only halfway done. Then I'll be walking around with a half-finished tattoo *faint*
No one understands how it feels to be the one who's planning to get it done. I'm excited, but I'm scared. I'm afraid that if I put it off too long, I'll chicken out once again and not get it done. And if I don't get it done, I'll keep longing for it... yearning. Nothing sucks more than yearning for something that you want really bad! (anyone's who's ever yearned badly for anything would totally agree to this!)

No one knows how it feels like to be me, to want to do it so bad, but there's still this fear. And when I tell people that I want to do it, they just tell me, "want to do it, do it lor". And when I try to tell them how it feels inside, no one understands. No one comprehends. They don't understand what there is to be excited about and what is there to be afraid of. They don't understand that although I've kinda decided to get it done, my heart still skips a beat when I think about it. And there's this pounding feeling inside when I just think about the procedure. Why can't someone understand the excitement and the anxiety that I feel inside? Why can't someone understand the fear that I feel?

Unless you're a body art lover, you'll never come close to understanding how this feels. Many will say, "Why do it in the first place? You're scarring yourself for life and you're paying a rather high price for it! Why pay for the pain? Why pay for something that you'll regret?" Doesn't anyone see that a tattoo is way more than that? It's an art. Maybe an art that not all will know how to appreciate. Many are still fxated on the belief that tattoos are derogatory and only the "bad apples" do it.

I guess in the end, it'll only boil down to how I, myself, feel about it. Because it's gonna be my tattoo on my body and I'm gonna be living with it for practically the rest of my life. I'm the one with the fear, the anxiety and the hesitation. I'm the one with the frustration and the indecision. Ultimately, I'm the one who's going to feel the pain.

I guess I should understand that no one understands...

Saturday, January 14, 2006

Watches :)


I've been blessed *grins* Aren't they beautiful???
The green one is a Winnie The Pooh watch that Chin Aun gave me for Christmas :) Don't laugh ok!! Winnie The Pooh isn't just for kids :p and the watch is really very nice!! This is my second Winnie The Pooh watch from him... The first one had metal straps.

The left one is an Esprit bangle watch that he just got for me today for Chinese New Year :) The first time I saw it was when we were in Kuantan... but I'm obviously too stingy to buy it and then he surprised me with it today!~ *wheeeeee*

Thank you so much biebie!! Even though I told you "no" and I really meant it, but it's really sweet of you anyway :) And I really do love them. You know my obsession with watches well ;) *muuuuaaaaaaaks* Love you lots...

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Music Shoutout

Especially to Melissa (my old time, music sharing buddy) and Chin Hau (whose tastes in music run along the same lines as mine)
It's the time of the year for a review of our "most played" music *grins* Since we can hardly sms or chat thru MSN for our exchange of great music, I'm posting it all on my blog. Tell me what you think and pleeeeeease share with me the ones that you guys think are great but it's not in my list ok? Here's what's been rocking my speakers for the previous months/weeks(?) whatever!~
Contemporary - those with a faster beat *grins*
  • Simple Plan - Crazy, Everytime, Shut Up, Untitled, Welcome To My Life
  • Sugababes - Push The Button (they're getting kinda pop-ish.. hmm? Prefer the old them) Some of their older songs include Overload (It's so monotonous and I love this!! Haha..), Freak Like Me, Round Round, Hole In the Head
  • Pussycat Dolls (they are sooo hot!) - Don't Cha (Sue thinks that this is the ultimate bitch song *grins*), *beep*, Stickwitu
  • Ciara - Oh (feat. Ludacris), 1 2 Step (feat. Missy Elliot)
  • Lifehouse - Blind, Chapter One (thanks to CH for this recommendation!)
  • Daniel Powter - Bad Day, Song 6, Free Loop (thanks to Mel and Sue for this recommendation!)
  • Kelly Clarkson - Because of You, My Grown Up Christmas List
  • The All-American Rejects (have u seen them!? They are sooooo hot!!! hahaha) - Dirty Little Secret, Change Your Mind, The Last Song, P.S. I Love You, Kiss Yourself Goodbye, Swing Swing, Can't Take It
  • Fall Out Boy - Sugar We're Going Down, Dance Dance
  • 3 Doors Down - Here By Me, Here Without You (I'm a sucker for 3 Doors Down's slow songs)
  • Garbage - Bleed Like Me, Right Between The Eyes, It's All Over But The Crying (some old ones that will live forever are like Push It, I Think I'm Paranoid, Cherry Lips, Androgyny, When I Grow Up)
  • Weezer - Beverly Hills
  • Gwen Stefani - Cool, Luxurious, Crash, Harajuku Girls, Hollaback Girl
  • Nickleback - Photograph, Someday
  • Keane - Everybody's Changing, Somewhere Only We Know
  • Gorillaz - Feel Good Inc., DARE
  • Low Millions - Eleanor, Statue
  • Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends, Boulevard of Broken Dreams, Hitchin' A Ride, Basketcase (this is the ultimate!)
  • Avril Lavigne - Why (I don't know why but I'm just attached to this one), My Happy Ending, Don't Tell Me
  • The Killers - Mr. Brightside
  • Train - Get To Me
  • Saliva - Rest In Pieces
  • Sheryl Crow - A Change, Everyday Is A Winding Road, Sweet Child o Mine (Guns n Roses cover), Hard To Make A Stand, If It Makes You Happy, All I Wanna Do

Contemporary - Gothic Rock

  • Marilyn Manson - This is the New Shit, Tainted Love, Coma White, Beautiful People, Rock is Dead (long live Matrix!), Irresponsible Hate Anthem, I Don't Like The Drugs (but The Drugs Like Me)
  • Evanescence - Bring Me To Life (this is the only good thing about the movie "Daredevil"), Everybody's Fool, Before the Dawn (OST American Beauty), Torniquet, Forgive Me, Imaginary, Anywhere, Eternal

Ballads, Oldies, those that make you soft inside & those sad soppy ones *grin*

  • LUTHER VANDROSS - BUY ME A ROSE (this song sings basically about what EVERY man out there lacks... *sigh* I'm a hopeless romantic...)
  • Babyface - Sorry for the Stupid Things (Thanks Mel for this one!)
  • Laura Allen - Slip & Slide (this song is from EONS ago! but it just makes me feel so good *grins*)
  • Mari Hamada - Hold On
  • Janet Jackson - Again (waaaaaay before her boob-exposure thingie *lol*)
  • Mariah Carey - Hero, I'll Be There, Music Box (waaaaaay before her *ahem* "born-again" days)
  • Boz Skaggs - It's Over
  • Vonda Shepard - Crying, Neighbourhood, You Belong To Me (this one's GOOD), I Know Him By Heart
  • Lisa Loeb - Stay
  • Roxette - Listen To Your Heart, It Must Have Been Love, How Do You Do, The Look, Joyride, A Thing About You, Queen of Rain, Vulnerable (this one's a classic)
  • Lionel Ritchie - Hello
  • Wham/George Michael - Last Christmas, Careless Whisper, Wake Me Up (Long Live Zoolander!!!)
  • Rod Stewart - Sometimes When We Touch
  • Surface - The First Time, Shower Me With Your Love
  • Mandy Moore - I Wanna Be With You (OST Centerstage <-- great movie!!!)
  • Skeeter Davis - Invisible Tears
  • Michael Buble - Kissing A Fool, The Way You Look Tonight, For Once In My Life, Dream A Little Dream of Me, How Can You Mend A Broken Heart (*Sobs*), Come Fly With Me
  • Roger Miller - King of The Road
  • Michael W. Smith - I Will Be Here For You

Misc Christmas Songs

  • Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You, Christmas (Baby Please Come Home), Miss You Most At Christmas Time
  • N Sync - The Only Gift, I Guess It's Christmastime, Love's In Our Hearts on Christmas, Don't Wanna Spend One More Christmas Without You
  • Mud - Lonely This Christmas (this one's so sad!)
  • Bobby Helms - Jingle Bell Rock
  • S Club 7 - Perfect Christmas
  • 98 Degrees - This Gift
  • Faith Hill - Where Are You Christmas
  • Blink 182 - I Won't Be Home For Christmas
  • Britney Spears - My Only Wish

Chinese Songs

  • JAY CHOU JAY CHOU JAY CHOU!!! *hysterical laughter* *ahem ahem* some songs from his new albums, namely "Lang Man Shou Ji" and "Feng". If you want me to state his songs from previous albums, here are some: Jian Dan Ai, Xing Qing, Ke Ai Nu Ren, An Jin... got a lot lah.. lazy to write :p
  • David Tao - Regular Friends (this one's soooo old! But it was good, it is good and it'll always be good! don't know the chinese name though!), Small Town Girl, Quicksand (those in English means I dunno the Chinese name ok?!), Hu Tie, Jiu Shi Ai Ni, Ai Heng Jian Dan, Tian Tian
  • Alex Toh - Wu Xin Shang Hai, Ba Ni Chang Qi Lai, Can't Stop Thinking of You, Baby Don't Go (note: all OLD songs.. new ones suck, big time!)

okok... I don't know much Chinese songs.. how about some recommendations from you guys?? Lee Hom ain't too bad. But I prefer his earlier works... the rest, I dunno liao. I'm anti groups like SHE, F4 and etc so don't bother recommending *grins* nah... go ahead and recommend, if I like it, then I like it. If I don't, then I don't :p I'm very open minded one.. haha.. ROTFL

Writing all this is making me tired *groan* If only I could import my playlist directly to your comps :) great huh? Anyways, will think of more and when I do, will upload another list :) hehe.. meanwhile, enjoy!!!

Melissa: Great to hear about the END of Corporate Finance!!! *yay* *cheers* hehe... so can we go and light a little campfire and burn the notes while we do the rain dance around it? hehe... I think you think I'm nuts.. ok.. maybe a little..

ChinHau: Hey fren! Study Hard la!! One more lousy sem and it's all over!!! Then you won't have to see the Uni anymore and start "contributing to the society" haha... GOOD LUCK for your papers!~

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

I'm speechless...

At first I was upset… Then I was pissed… And now I just feel kinda numb, I guess. Don't really know how to feel...

Y’see, a couple of days ago, I received an email from a housemate (ex-housemate? It’s complicated!) to say that he no longer wants to rent the room. The reason why I don’t know whether to classify him as a housemate or an ex-housemate is because he actually moved out a couple of months back but he was still renting the room for his ex (she’s still occupying the room but she hasn’t been home in months. But her stuff are still there though!).

Anyhoo… I received the email from him when I smsed his ex-gf to tell her to bank in the room rent to Chin Aun cos it was overdue. Everyone’s gotta pay up by the 5th cos Chin Aun’s gotta bank the total sum to the landlord by the 7th. Since he didn’t pay yet, Chin Aun paid on his behalf first. Then he says he doesn’t want to rent anymore, therefore he doesn’t want to pay.

So I told him, you can’t just tell me that smack in the middle of the month and expect all loose ends to tie themselves up. At least give me a month’s notice and I’ve gotta find someone else and etc. So he says ok, he’ll come and meet with Chin Aun to discuss the next course of action. After many phone calls and numerous smses, he finally agreed on a time to meet with Chin Aun, which was on Tuesday at 4pm.

He came over and brought his university lecturer (who is a friend) with him, whom according to him, was there to help him clear the stuff in his room. By and by, I thought it was very nice of the lecturer.

Here’s lies the problem. Since the moment he stepped into the house, he refused to say anything! Zilch!! No words came from him at all! Then I asked him if everything was ok, whether is there anything wrong with his ex-gf and I wanted to know why she suddenly wanted to move out. He refused to answer me. I asked him to have a seat at the dining table and even brought him a chair but he totally zipped up! I was starting to feel weird and I kept asking him stuff (still no replies! No surprise here!)
And then Chin Aun told me to go into my room and do my stuff, and that he’ll settle it. Fine… Shoo me away...

So anyways, after that, Chin Aun mainly spoke to his lecturer who was totally clueless about stuff and I guess he was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. I mean, the idea to meet up is to settle everything in a nice manner. After all, everything is negotiable and we gotta find a way to find the best thing to do next. But what can we settle if one party refuses to say a word!?

Anyhow, then his phone rang and he told Chin Aun that his DAD wants to talk to Chin Aun. (huh?!) Anyways, his dad told Chin Aun to let him pack and that his dad would settle everything with Chin Aun later.

So Chin Aun allowed him to pack his stuff from the room and then after that Chin Aun drafted a simple MOU to state that he still owes Chin Aun the stipulated sum of rent for the month of January. With the lecturer as a witness. Chin Aun signed the doc, so did the lecturer. When this fella came out from his room, and Chin Aun told him to sign the document, he called his dad again and got his dad to call Chin Aun. And this is the climax of the story:
His dad called and threatened Chin Aun!!! He spoke in Hokkien but this is somewhere along the lines of what he said (Chin Aun told me the censored version, it seems). He told Chin Aun that his son need not sign any agreements and that by asking him to sign, Chin Aun doesn’t trust him. He then goes on to tell Chin Aun that he knows Chin Aun’s dad and that he’s got a reputation and has numerous connections and will let Chin Aun “get it” if Chin Aun continues to persist. Then he tells Chin Aun to let his son go home first and that he will come down to KL (from Penang) on Thursday to meet with Chin Aun. To let Chin Aun “get it”? Or to properly settle it?

Great huh? A story of threat(?) blackmail(?) intimidation(?) in the 21st century!! Imagine… All these while, I was in my room, totally clueless of the situation. Then when Chin Aun came and check on me, he told me everything! I was so appalled. I am a person of many words but I guess I’ve found the first thing to ever render me speechless!

For God’s sake! We are friends! Hmmm… we were friends(?) And here he is, refusing to settle minor complications in an amiable manner and instead, asking his dad to resort to making threats. Good grief! He was here for around 2 hours (give or take a little) and he NEVER SAID A WORD!! NONE AT ALL!!
I spoke to his ex-gf and asked her why she didn't tell me that she wanted to move. Even though I spoke to her on MSN, saw her on campus and even smsed her when she didn't came back home. Then she said that she told her ex and that he said he would settle it. Is this a matter of settling? I'm so confused...

What’s even more ironic is that the landlord initially didn’t want to rent the room out to a male that he doesn’t know. Seems that they are troublesome? But my friend (this guy’s ex-gf) pleaded with me and said that her then-bf is not the type of person in question. So we persisted and discussed with the landlord and although the rental was raised to accommodate this, but everything was fine. We even had a deal that we would stay the full 2 years to avoid complications.

I just feel so weird… We’re not even talking about someone who is a stranger. This is someone we laugh and talk with. Someone that we’ve even helped when he was going through a rough patch in his relationship. Go figure? This brings new meaning to the saying “Biting the hand that feeds you”.

So, to everyone’s who’s reading this… How shall Chin Aun go about settling this issue? (He refused to let me be involved) Any suggestions? I don’t want anyone to get hurt

I guess one MAJOR lesson learnt here:
Trust No One (yeah! X-Files!!) You think you know them but you’ll never know what someone is capable of. Unless of course, you really know that person J I’ve had my fair share of meeting people like that, but of course I have been blessed with friends that are dearer than all the treasures in the world.

I guess it’s just that feeling of being disgruntled… the feeling’s still here. But I’m no longer pissed. Maybe still a little upset though… But I do know one thing’s for sure, there’s still this feeling deep inside that can be likened to the bitter aftertaste that lingers in your mouth after you take medication.

Monday, January 09, 2006

Help Needed!!

I need help!!! Anyone knows how to shrink a pair of pants that's 100% cotton?! I've tried using hot water when washing but it doesn't seem to work *groan* The first time I wear it after washing it feels just right, then the second time I wear it, it doesn't fit so nicely anymore *cry*
Tried looking on the Internet for ideas... but most of it includes spinning the clothing in the dryer (in high temperature!) and I don't have a dryer!!!
I LOVE MY PANTS!! Someone pleeeeeease teach me how I can go about settling this!!

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
Tell Me
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you
More and more each day...
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you I need you I need you
[Avril Lavigne - Why]

Monday, January 02, 2006

New Year in Kuantan

You must be thinking... "huh?!" haha... Actually, my sister's husband, Daniel, is from Kuantan and so all of us (that would be me, Chin Aun, my sis, Daniel, my cousin, my parents and my aunt) went there for the New Year!~ Daniel's parents organized some post-wedding luncheon in the church that Daniel grew up in.
Anyways, it wasn't a very happening place (look who's talking! :p It's not like I am such a happening person to begin with!~ *grins*) BUT it was fun and it was relaxing and there was no traffic there!!~ Except the time when we went for Ikan Bakar and there was some JPN roadblocks to check the cars. It was cool cos there were many motorcyclists who were hiding behind trees a couple of meters before the roadblock! Hehe...
Some great stuff to note about Kuantan:
(1) Teluk Chempedak (the beach is so great!! I went there on both days!)
(2) Satay Zul (the beef satay was to die for! yum! But of course, I am a "beef" person, so my opinion's probably biased)
(3) Smooth traffic
Here are some photos taken in Kuantan...

The photos that we took of Teluk Chempedak :) nice leh?

This is a photo of me and Chin Aun against the setting sun :) Can hardly see my face, but I guess it doesn't really matter cos I look like crap anyway...

MY FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND!~

Haha... I had to exert so much pressure to make my footprints as prominent as possible for it to look OBVIOUS in the photo! I was so red in the face after that *phew*

~SATAY ZUL~

Because I really like the satay, so the photo of it is bigger than the other photos posted here :p see? that's 10 sticks of Chicken Satay, 10 sticks of Beef Satay and 5 sticks of Mutton Satay *yum*

We actually had Satay on our first day there but we liked it so much that we went again the very next day. It was raining so heavily but we actually (in this case, we means me, Chin Aun and my cousin) went anways! At 11:30pm *grins* insane!~ All in all... it was a pretty fun trip *grins*

There wasn't much celebration of the new year in Kuantan... either that or we didn't know where to go. There were fireworks though! And there was a countdown along the Pahang River which was right beside the hotel that we were staying in. There was also this bistro in the hotel (I guess it was the one that organized the countdown) and it was filled with people... young people. Old people like us stayed in the room and shouted the countdown from the window *grins*