Little Fangs

I was just looking thru the photos I have on my comp and getting ready for bed when I noticed something odd in my photos...
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I HAVE FANGS!!!

*whoa*
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so at the ungodly hour of 2:10am on a Friday morning, I took out my phone and took the following photos:

little left fang and little right fang...
The one on the left is more pointed while the one on the right is less prominent (it hardly shows in photos)

I know what's some of you are thinking... you're thinking "Those are not fangs!! Those are a sorry excuses of very-crooked-and-tiny-but-somewhat-sharp-little-teeth"...

Hmmph...

*Stomp my foot*

I BEG TO DIFFER!!

They may be tiny and yellowed with caffeine stains (yups! not nicotine stains cos I'm proudly a NON-SMOKER!!! *blek* I think I love myself too much to want to smoke...)... but they are nevertheless SHARP!! and heck... I BITE... I like to bite... No.. actually, I LOVE TO BITE... anyone who knows me knows I like to bite (I just don't draw blood, that's all *shrugs*)

Besides, if you have a tiny little toe, how would you feel if someone told you this : "Your toe is so puny, it doesn't have the dignity of a toe! you should just call it a thingamajig!" Wouldn't you be downright insulted too?!?!
*blek* see my point??
I admit that they are kinda tiny... hmmm... but ALL my teeth are tiny :p

now... she has pretty long fangs! :D I wouldn't mind having such long-and-difficult-to-hide-fangs if I looked like her *ahems*

aesthetics aside...
here are some photos I found on my comp with my tiny-little-fang showing...

a little digression...

hmmm... not only do I have a set of undignified fangs, but I have a pretty bad case of rabbit teeth too! What can I say? I have a very sorry set of tooth! :p
Let's get back to the topic at hand...
More pics of my little teeth *grins*

I am very envious of the fact that ChinAun has the perfect set of teeth. They're so darned straight!! I was certain that he wore braces once but he denied it! I double checked with his mom... She said it's natural *hmmph* (sudah rasa tak syok!) and he has dimples!!! *arrrrghhh*!!! Why can't I be the one with perfect little pearly whites and dimples?!?! WHYWHYWHYWHY?!?!?! to make things even worse... his stupid teeth doesn't stain! how's that for unfair?!

sooooo.... vindictive little me is gonna post some of his silly faces here to make up for the fact that he has perfect teeth and dimples while I don't! *blek*
So there!!

*grins*
I really like my teeth... I'm so proud of them!~ I think I got it from my mom! She has pretty pointed teeth too!~

ok... fangs or no fangs... I really need to sleep now... *yawn* need to fetch his-royal-highness Perfect Stainless Teeth to work tomorrow cos I want to use the car... *groan*
toodles all!~

Post FYP Pics

Boey, Jiun, Kareen and I went for Japanese Lunch Buffet at Shogun on Thursday!! :D Says Chin Aun "My dear girl... It's after FYP due date... not after final exam ok? Don't play so much!!" Hmmh... Alright already! I think he's just being a wet blanket cos we left him out of the outing!! :p

Basically, I'm just too tired to write anything... Went to bed at 11pm and slept until 12:56pm today... SWEEEEEEET!!! Too bad I can't do that again cos it's already 1:21am now and I have to drop Chin Aun off to work at 7:45am tomorrow... dang it!!! Here are some pics instead... We look pretty stoned mainly cos we were too stuffed!

Actual Acknowledgement

I've completed my FYP!!! DONE!! FINITO!!! *hysterical laughter* ..... *ahem* *ahem*.... anyways... I'm just so glad that it is over! Phew! *wipe sweat from brow* goodness knows what my grade will be.. as long as get higher than B- then should be enough lar.. but then, if everyone prays hard enough and I, by some bizzare cosmic phenomenon, get an A or A-, I'm going to be generous and treat you all to some nice food :D hahaha...

Anyways, in my FYP report, I am required to write an "Acknowledgement" section whereby I'm suppose to declare my eternal gratitude to whoever helped me in the course of completing my project and this was what I wrote (right down to the exact full-stop):

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"I would like to express my appreciation and gratitude to the following people who have guided me and have contributed, in their own ways, to the successful completion of my project.

Firstly, I would like express my sincerest appreciation to project supervisor, Miss Yeoh Kar Peng for her kind consideration of taking me under her wing and giving me the necessary guidance and advice in the successful completion of this project. I would also like to thank my initial project supervisor, Mr. Cheah Keat Ming for his help with the insight on my research topic.

Next, I would like to express my gratitude to Mr. Seah Chin Aun for his priceless support and guidance when I needed it the most. Also to Miss Melissa Lim and Mr. Ding Teng Yee for their guidance, support, invaluable information and insight as well as their effort in helping me to find out more in-depth information about my research topic and for distributing my questionnaires.

I would also like to thank my fellow classmates, Miss Ng Aun Boey, Miss See Chia Jiun, Miss Kareen Lee, Miss Wai Sue Leng, Mr. Ong Theng Soon, Mr. Lim Kai Feong and Mr. Ooi Jin Chun for their selfless sharing of information and exchange of opinions.

Lastly, I would like to thank my parents for every aspect of support and love that they have given to me that enbled me to successfully complete my project. "

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When in actual fact, what I would have written would be this (refer to the following text) but it wasn't high in professionalism, so I had to settle for less...

Adding to that, Chin Aun kept saying that my "acknowledgement" is not sincere and that his name should be in bold and etc etc... hehe...

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"I would like to express infinite gratitude and approbation to the following who have contributed, in their own ways, to the completion of my project:

Mr. Seah Chin Aun - firstly, in the sleepless nights when he helped me with my Business Analysis. On the side, thanks for cooking dinner when we had no time to go out to eat, for finding all the information and highlighting the important parts, for letting me vent my frustration on you (whether it was vocal or physical *hang head in shame*) for the promises of reward (oh shopping, oh sushi!) on the condition that I really out my heart into my work and finally... for the incessant nagging that actually worked!! *muuuaaaaaksies* love you to bits!

Ms. Melissa Lim - firstly for believing in me and for texting me on separate occassions to check on my progress and to encourage me *hugs* (you'll never know how much that means to me... ) and for being "on-call" to supply information and lastly, in helping me distribute the questionnaires :D gawd... thank you and I love you so much!!

Mr. Ding Teng Yee - for being the middle person between me and Mel when her credit ran dry.. and for helping with the questionnaires and for the supply of information! ;)

My Mom - for calling me non-stop and telling me that it's not a big deal if I don't do well. "It's just a a grade! Who cares about grades?!" you say... And that the most important thing is that I get enough sleep and not be bothered as long as I can hand it in on time and pass. Gawd!! Thanks so much for making me feel so good and never putting the pressure on me to perform *teary eyed* (hearing her say that makes me wanna cry!) I love my mommy!!!

My Dad - for sending me the weirdest messages, telling me the funniest things, at the oddest times to take my mind off the pending deadline!

My Mom, Dad & Aunt - for my baby, my satellite. Because I don't think I would have managed to get so much done without it! And I think it is the best reward even before I have completed my FYP! haha...

Ms. Ng Aun Boey, Ms. See Chia Jiun & Ms. Kareen Lee - for believing in me :D and for henpecking me to work on my report. And for transportation when I ddn't have the car.. *hugs*

Ms. Wai Sue Leng - for opening her house and heart to me... especially since my stupid internet connection has gone screwy...

Mr. Victor Ong, Mr. Lim Kai Feong & Mr. Ooi Jin Chun - for all the encouragement! and for all the crossed fingers as well as the non-stop reminders and nagging! Oh... and for the sharing of information... hee hee...

Mr. Khor Chin Hau - who expressed genuine concern at my lack of progress and actually offered me his final year project... "just-in-case" *winks*

Mr. Zeeks Mah - for giving me something to look forward to in his promise to take me and my bie to "BamBu Bali" (huh?! *scratch head*) *ahem* I'm ready to go!!! Zeeks!! Time to show yourself!!

Finally, to The Calling, Gwen Stefani, Jay Chou, Jason Mraz, The All-American Rejects, All Saints, Fall Out Boy, David Tao, Toni Braxton, James Blunt and the rest of the music industry for keeping me sane, especially in the middle of the night! Hahaha... Music Rocks! and will live on after we are all gone...

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I wonder what would happen if I handed in this version of my acknowledgement???

Photo

When you told me that you loved me
Were those just words?
You can't tell me you dont need me
And I know that hurts
Cause I'm looking at your picture
Cause its all i've got
Maybe one day you and me will have
One more shot

[Ryan Cabrera - Photo]

My Finger

Just an otherwise boring conversation that took place between me and Zeeks on Friday night. We were on MSN Messenger and he was criticizing my display picture.

Zeek says:
can u get rid of that stupit lookin tinkerbell

Zeek says:
so annoying

Zeek says:
u want me to call aladin to give her a gud time ????

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
shit u lar

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
she's already having a good time

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
let me put a photo just for u

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
gimme a minute

Zeek says:
okie

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
r u ready??????

You have just sent a Nudge!

------------- i changed my display photo---------------------------

Zeek says:
yuppie

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
here's to u

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
hahahahaha

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
hows that for a good fren?

Zeek says:
just doit

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
just for u

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
i stopped my work

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
took out my camera

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
and took this photo

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
uploaded it into comp

Zeek says:
wat did u do

Zeek says:
i dn see anything

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
and giving it to you

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
close the window and reopen

Zeek says:
hahaha

Zeek says:
i cee dat

Zeek says:
dats pretty long ....woooo.....................

Zeek says:
if ur a guy ........ hhahahaha

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
i know

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
i love my finger

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
if i am a guy

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
girls will be longing for me

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
hahahahaha

Zeek says:
so

Zeek says:
hahah

Zeek says:
ur just too stressed out my freen

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
yups

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
if not i wont take this photo

Zeek says:
later chin aun sees it ur in deep trouble

Zeek says:
hahaha

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
hahaha

SoonYee http://soonyee.blogspot.com/ says:
maybe..

I figured if Chin Aun does see this and scolds me.... It's still gonna be worth it anyway! Hahahaa... The wonders of technology eh? :D I really love my phone and I love Bluetooth! Haha...
Zeek, u are not offended right??? :p considering you spew profanities at me like there's no tomorrow anyway.

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What I learnt in lecture today

The lecturer is talking right up in front
To me it sounds like spam
I’m already half asleep
Oh gawd, it’s only 11am!

I’m trying so hard to pry my eyes open
Physical force just won’t do
I tell myself I’d be a little more alert
If he’d stop for a min and let us use the loo

I just want to fall asleep
Guess the guilt just ain’t getting to me
But then there’s this feeling of unease
When I think about my FYP

I think I’m gonna be sick
I think I’m gonna puke
One thing I know for sure
I am so so screwed!!

I procrastinate but then I grumble
That the only thing I need is time
What’s weird is that this anxiety and pressure
Is actually making me rhyme!

Haha…I'm going crazeeee....

Crying

I thought that I was over you 
But it's true, oh so true
I love you even more 
Than I did before
But darling what can I do
For you don't love me 
And I'll always be

Crying over you
Crying over you 

Yes, now you're gone
And from this moment on

I'll be crying, crying, crying...

No reason... just in the mood for sad songs I guess...

Life's perspective

To someone who will probably never read this but it made me feel better to write it down anyway:

I guess I'm becoming more jaded and cynical. Just like you wanted me to.

A million memories ago, there was you and then there was I. You came and picked me up and I had no idea where we were going. All I had on me were the clothes that I was wearing and a small bag with my phone, money and ID inside. You held on to my bag while I visited the washroom. When I came back, you looked at me with and asked “Do you realize that if I were to get up and leave, you’d be here all alone? You don’t know where you are, you don’t have money and you have no one to turn to. Then what are you going to do?” I didn’t understand so I asked you “Why would you want to do that?”. Then you gave me a little speech about trust. You told me never to trust someone so much, never to think with such naiveté. Never assume that everyone is good.

Until today, I have never understood what you told me. The things you said, they didn’t make sense. Why shouldn’t I trust a person with all my heart? Why shouldn’t I believe in the good of every person, that everyone is beautiful and that life is like a beautiful blue sky with fluffy white clouds and never-ending rainbows? Why shouldn’t I see that life is like a beautifully constructed melody, with clearly expressed intonations and love infused wordings?

I know now that I was stupid.

Actually the word stupid doesn’t even begin to define what I was. I look back and I realize that I was the walking, talking epitome of incompetence. The good in every person? Everyone is beautiful? Life is a like a clear blue sky with fluffy clouds and rainbows? A beautiful melody?! I scoff at its simplicity. I mock its obtuseness. I palm my forehead and ask myself how I even came up with such foolish perceptions. I was an imbecile, a congenital idiot. Oh, how I made me laugh.

And I am not that anymore.

It’s like I’ve grown up. My thinking has changed. I see now what you mean. Life? Simple and beautiful? The good in others?

*scoff*

There is no such thing.

Let me tell you what I’ve learnt. Life is a pebbled path and sometimes, there are shards of broken glass between these pebbles and you cut the soles of your feet on them. The cuts don’t heal because you need to continue walking and there are more pebbles and more shards of glass waiting to cut and bruise you. Just when you thought you’ve gotten used to the pain, life throws a rock your way and crushes your toes. You can choose to stop walking but then if you do, then how can you see what’s at the end of the road? The only means of protection is to wear shoes.

Now, SHOES, hypothetically means that we have to harden our hearts and souls and regard everything and everyone with thinly veiled distrust.

I say this now because I'm actually starting to believe it is true. Life isn’t as beautiful as I thought it was. Life isn't always coming-up roses and it hurls shit in your path whenever it can. The people you meet. Do you actually think that they give a rat’s ass about you? That they sincerely care about your feelings, your thoughts and emotions? It’s a selfish world and it’s filled with self-centered narcissistic people. People who take advantage of others to pave a better road for themselves. People who take your love and affection for granted. Wear your heart on your sleeve and risk getting it broken. What’s worse, it’s normally returned to you in a more dire state. It would be more than broken. It would be smashed to smithereens and crushed to powder to be tossed into the air. So that you can never get it back and even if you do, it’s impossible to be pieced together again.

So, in general, there are two types of people:

The time-serving opportunist and the clueless naiveté.

Which would you rather be?

I’m a reformed naiveté working my way to become a callous sardonic.

And I believe I owe every single ounce of my determination to become one to you. You taught me all you know. You’ve made me into an impassive monster, one that closely resembles you. I don’t know whether to thank you or hate you for it.

Because there was a time, when I thought I loved you. Maybe I still do. Because this little part of me still believes that love, any love, never dies. But then, it’s just love. I’d rather love myself because then, I cannot, and I will not, get hurt again.

So here I am, and I proudly present to you your creation. Your sweat and tears. Your monster. Call me whatever you want. You think it anyway. And I believe I learnt it all from you.

Jay Chou - Lang Man Shou Ji

Video: Lan Man Shou Ji by clairina

When There Was Me and You

I thought you were my fairytale

My dream when I'm not sleeping

A wish upon a star that's coming true…

But everybody else could tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

When there was me and you…

Now I know you're not a fairytale

And dreams were meant for sleeping

And wishes on a star just don't come true…

Cause now even I can tell

That I confused my feelings with the truth

Because I liked the view

When there was me and you…